Undefined realm studio

it still is

2011-09-13T00:44:00.001+08:00

it still is ....

It is time for the fire to rage once more...

2009-01-17T20:16:00.003+08:00

The flame rages for many reasons...... at times to outshine itself to others.... to prove to others what it can do... but there are times.... the flame rages for others...

About 2 years ago.....the flame died off... it never shine anymore...and shall not shine anymore as no purpose for it to do...

for the past few days.... i again...see the need for it...

i was there a year ago.... making the choice... the choice of what has become now... I m beginning to doubt whether did i make the right choice? what is happening now...was it within my anticipation...?

i was there a couple of months ago.... telling someone.... go for it.. and i shall support you...

i was there a couple weeks ago..asking the very question to others...are you sure you are up for the challenge...do you really want to pursue further...?

All the scenarios and more....has been playing in my mind for the past few days... till now..
now i have decided.... for all these to go through.... for all these to end happily for others
The FIRE SHALL RAGE ONCE MORE... for others ....

i shall hold to my promise..... i shall take responsibility to the decision i help made...
Some may get burned along the way... i might get burned along the way... but perhaps.. this has always been the purpose of my existance..

The weird change that happens?

2008-10-11T03:08:00.002+08:00

It is sometime noticeable to yourself if not others that you behave slightly out of the ordinary among different crowd or people. Perhaps it is due to awkwardness, a state where one feels uncertain of what to do next. Happen among people you newly met?

This is not entirely the case here. It still can happen among the same crowd. The same crowd which you always hang out with. This could actually make you a sudden jerk among your friend. Especially when you suddenly try to hard to "get back in". What could have led to such a situation to occur. Even some of the brightest mind could have this problem. He/she could think of a thousand ways to behave in that situation or may have done it a million times. But it is at this moment, that he/she also can behave normally. Many may not notice another's sudden change of behavior as he/she maybe be good at concealing it.

Books may not necessary help much in this. Or perhaps i m not reading much. But i trust the dreams i had. The dreams that gave me idea on many things. It came about, could it be the change of perspective. The way 1 see another in the group. Maybe not the entire group, but certain individual be it positive or negative.

But what triggered it? Something they said or do? In alot of time, it may not be the sole reason. It is the continuous development of relationship between people that may have contributed to this. Getting to know one more could change your perspective of another. What bother me is, people tend to judge by guessing in this process. To know someone, it takes a lifetime and even that may not be true. People changes from time to time.

You may be given the gift to be able to drop quick and accurate judgment of people in mere days of speaking to them. But you too are human, you too may have a change of perspective. You too will fall into the state of "behave slightly out of the ordinary".

How my partner KHStudio1 almost died...

2008-10-04T16:27:00.002+08:00

One of my worst fear came.... my best partner so far KHStudio1 ( my laptop) started to crash.. BSOD (Blue Screen of Death) appear almost every now and then... and at times.. i cant even boot my laptop... But everything was in KHStudio1... so i decided to open up "him" ..and took the "Brain" aka harddisk out... and copy everything out...

From tat onwards..... is surgery time...
I attempted to reformat ... my harddisk.... and reinstall a fresh new OS... well... there were several warnings during reformatting.... and installation.. but everything was kinda ok... it was to my relieve..i spend the remaining of my night installing all other critical softwares...

But the next day when i woke up, to my dissappointment.. i cant wake him up again... and weird sounds seems to be coming from it...

2 deduction was made..... either the motherboard is faulty.. or the harddisk.. The choice was easy.... on what to do.... since i cant get a new motherboard....(already too old)... i went and purchase a new harddisk...160gb... tat's double the original.. what to do... no stock for smaller capacity..

Again.. i went into surgery mode.... i took out the "Brain" again. .and replace it with a newer one... With much cautious.. i proceeded with all the installation...
tested it... in operation for 6 hours... then.. reboot 3 times... and continue on with several other installation

Walah!!!... nothing happened... everything seems to be as it is... my partner is back in action..hahaha Too bad guys.. u will see him with me everywhere for abit longer...!

How the sword was formed?

2008-09-27T13:37:00.008+08:00

This is a story of mine.... a rather boring one... It's not about any great philosophy or about my current life... but it is my story, my story that made me who i m today...... one which I am worry will fade away one day from..in my busy life.fearing that ,although i believe that we shouldnt be encumbered by the past, we should go off and do something wonderful, i decided to write this article (to those who are actually reading... WARNING ..THIS IS LONG AND LENGTHY...also with lots of spelling and grammar errors ..pls let me know so i can correct it)..

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CHAPTER 1 : THE DISCOVERY OF THE ELEMENT
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It all started of....about 13 years ago...i was about 10 that time. I still remember the scene....when everyday... dad/mom sends me to school and i see these students a year elder then me..proudly wear their blue uniform to school. They were the prefect in my primary school. I envy them alot. My dad, mom...uncle...aunties ..basically everyone describe how great it is to be a prefect. My elder bro ( a year elder then me... was then a prefect as well.. soon after i started to envy that position), made me more keen to take up that responsibility. But then i could only dream.. i didn't know what i must do in oder to be prefect. All i did was .. to try to maintain great grades (since coincidently most of the prefects do very well in their studies).

Thanks to the "shadowing" my bro on me... my teachers actually recommended me to be a prefect. I feel like flying then..knowing i will be a prefect. I know i will have to make sure rules in the school are followed. And so i did that.. for the next 1 year. Some of my frens told me... i m too strict then...hehe. I still remember very clearly who my partner was when i was first became a prefect. She was a malay girl same age as me...(better not mention her name here... privacy issue..later...). We were incharge of the class 1 Maju. It was during my first duty to take care of the class after being a full fledge prefect then, which i first felt great responsibility. Everyone listens to exactly what i say (the 1 maju class students). From that moment.. i think i want to be a leader, but then i have little knowledge of what a leader is all about.

Nearing to the end of the year 5 then, selection process for the next head prefect began. I was so thrilled when i was announced to be one of the 4 candidate short listed by seniors and teachers. However, to my disappointment, i was not selected in the end, not even as a post bearer. (Heard there were some school politics involved then as i was promised a position at least even if i didn't make it to head prefect... but i will never know..). I carried on my prefect life, doing the extra things that most student would be lazy to even bother about. Yes, i missed alot of the fun time in primary school as I was always everywhere helping teachers to carry chairs ( a weird thing that i m actually good at...read on and u will know y) and also on performing my duty.

Moving on to my secondary life, at first i gave up the idea about all these responsibility at the beginning (felt being cheated back in primary), but later under the same influence i felt in primary school. I became a prefect once again. I was appointed the Treasurer of Prefect Board for evening session (form1 and form2). This was a new milestone, as I am more engaged in making decision for board. But then, i m still envy of some people in school ( yes, i envy alot of people). I was envy of the senior prefects, those in upper secondary (particular those in Form 6). They look so "powerful" with their blazer on while they were carrying on their duty. Occasionally a few of them will stay back till evening to check on us and help us out. Those few hours while i was observing them, i learned a lot. They sort of motivate to do my duty better ( well sometimes is abit demoralized when u see your peers around u slacking at their duties despite warnings given to them). So yes, the senior prefects were motivating somehow.

~~~~~~FEEL BORED?~~~~U SHOULDN'T BE READING~~~~THIS IS JUST FOR MY OWN PERSONAL RECORD~~~~~~~~

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CHAPTER 2 : WHEN METAL MEETS FIRE
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Time passes by, and soon I was a Form 4 prefect/student (about to be form5). Transition occurs during August. This was my turning point. The point where i learnt what is called responsibility (something common..but if u ask me..many fail to learn it even after many years in their life). I was bestowed with trust on many position that time. I was appointed Councillor of Prefect ( a position during that time that usually is given only to Form6 prefects), I took the helm of Computer Club being the President, became the Secretary for StJohn Ambulance in my school.. and my others (shit i forgot alot of them, well i remember these caused i made a difference there and these are the place which many things took place).

As the secretary of StJohn Ambulance, i was part of a great team of people. It was just 2 years after StJohn was reestablished officially in our school. The foundation has been laid. Is time to built on it. We started various initiatives to make ourselves more "seen" among the other StJohn Ambulance division. We started to make our own letterhead and mail every division regarding our upcoming events. We acquired recognition of our division strength after a few years by appointment of couple of us to ranked cadet NCOs (I was made Corporal and my president was made sergeant). It was a nice experience to not only learn about first aid but also discipline in uniform bodies. I sometime miss this experience where by i gave command out loud in the field to other cadets to assemble and march. As fun as it maybe, i shall never forget the many after school hours and saturdays i need to spend on participating and organizing stuff since form 2 or 3.( Haha suddenly an interesting event pop up in my mind about stjohn life.. i fell asleep once when i was form3 during marching practice. I was sick and tired then, but i still went for practice after school under the hot sun. I fell asleep as i was standing, cos the commander was talking dont know what, i felt bored and tired...so i took a quick nap while i was in "Sedia" position. hehe.. until my fren at the back.. bang me when everyone started to march.. only then i was awake....hehehe)

Now comes the story about computer club, i like this part of my life a lot too. Cos i know i set a new standard in running the club, a standard which was followed by many years after tat.. (but not sure about now la). Bored with what these guys usually do during computer club meetings, i tot i add some juice into it. I decided is time to have some fun while exploring the technology edge. That time, people were very into Website design. Everyone is talking about it. My teacher advisor asked me to teach people about website since i lead a team of students from my school to develop the school website a year back (ask me if u want to know..lazy to write too much) . So i ran a class on how to develop a simple website for the members. I tried to keep things simple, worrying that people wont understand me if i go too deep.A few weeks passed and soon after that, a thought came "why not treasure hunt?" Just a simple program in VB with clues in it, i made people run all over the school to compete for RM5 cash prize...(participants actually "cursed" me..for where i hid the answers..hahaha). Also that time was the age of ICQ and MSN, alot of people type real fast when they were chatting, but who can type the fastest? I decided to find out, i organized a typing competition, many came to prove how great they are. And people... to my memory, this is the first competition i organized, i did the publicity, i came out with the marking scheme and eventually marked all of it with the assistance of microsoft word. (want to know the details.. again.. ask me..hehe). Wow....feel so proud, as my teacher advisor eventually try to make all these an annual event after that.

Here comes the greatest achievement, where the fire started to rage! I met great leaders in the board, 1 after the other, alot the school captains seem to impress me with their leadership style. I learned leadership from these people.(these people are really remarkable, their leadership skill are so rare, i dont see them much these days). I was very proud to be a member of the council of prefect (u might be able to find some details about it at these website http://www.geocities.com/shsprefect/), a position I eyed on many years. However, my year was a special year, quite a number of us from form5 were selected to be councillors. A total of 4 were selected if i still recall it correctly. But i am still very proud of it, i was Councillor Rabu (the councillor position that was usually given to 1 form5 prefect)( so I think i m the original wan..hahha..syok sendiri). I was incharge of the form3 students discipline and the patrol area for labs and workshop. As a councillor, i had to do weekly review on prefects under my supervision, and well get involve in heated arguments during council meet.( there might be a separate write up on my prefect journey alone..hahaha). Oh ya.. i am incharge of the inventory record for prefect chairs used for event also (..remember i say i have good skill with chairs). There were days when my prefects avoid me and decide to slack and leave the chairs at assembly area.. i am the one who end up carrying all ( total 80++) the chairs back (ok...sometimes there are 1 or 2 people came to help...Oh ya... my highest record of chairs carried in 1 go for a distance of about 70 meters (of many kinds of terrain was 10 chairs). Also during my councillor year, i decided we need to improve on the punishment tracking system that prefect has. I was given the opportunity to put this to work as i suggested it. A serial number based, offence fine receipt was introduced schoolwide allowing minimal misuse of prefect power by irresponsible prefects. Coming to the end of my term, feeling real proud of the experience i had in prefect board, i wrote an article on the school magazine about what happened in prefect board for the past 5 years (It could be the best compiled record of prefect history in the past 5 years for future reference).

The so many things i did, so many that i cant go to details, reminds me what i can accomplish if i really want to do it. I sometime wonder how i was able to cope with my studies then.

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CHAPTER 3 : THE FORGING OF THE SWORD
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The year was 2003, i returned back to my high school for Form6 studies. Being an ex-setapakian, expectation was high. Senior and junior students alike, were expecting a great continuation of legacy. They have seen what a few of my friends and I could accomplish when we were form5. With these, I was entrusted with the school, on the 1st of August 2003, i took the oath to be the 48th School Captain. Along with it, i re termed as the president of computer club, elected as the vice-chairman of StJohn Ambulance in my school, and ventured into the School Magazine Editorial Board taking up the position as graphic designer.

As the school captain, managing the entire prefect board was one of the biggest challenge. With over 70 prefects pledge to serve the school with u and over 1000 students to manage( and of course 100 teachers to satisfy)., it was indeed where the sword was forged. Have you ever had the experience where u need to step forward and take all the blame for your teammates, have you ever gone to sleep everynight thinking what will happen the next day, have you ever needed to stare in the eyes of brutal students and tell them "U R WRONG", all these and many more during my days as the school captain.

My teammates, this topic itself deserves a whole paragraph. I had among the largest council (with 20 councillors) ever formed in the prefect board. These people came from different background, some were close frens and some were new friends who came from other school. All with different experience and different goals in life. And here yet, all of them came together int the council of prefect that manages one of the most challenging school in KL. All was very focused on their studies, 19 have their stpm coming up soon and 1 has his spm awaiting ( you might wonder y 1 is from form5, well i insisted to my predecessor we must keep the tradition to appoint 1 outstanding form5 prefect to be in the council). These people are the people i trusted as they were my hands and legs. They were there when i told them i need them there. If everyone else in the board fail me, i know my councillors will never fail me when a mission is given to them. Have they ever disappointed me, it would be a lie if i told you no. Yes, there were incidents that they disappointed me without any intention. Many of them, at times disagrees with teachers (well u know..sometimes teachers tend to be over demanding) and goes again teachers. To whom do these teachers seek audience when they failed to discuss with my prefects? Me! These were the moments, that required balance between managing my prefects and also "managing" the teachers. Is it worth all the trouble i go through to "protect" my teammates? YES! I can recall many events that, if without them, i wouldn't have made it through. One of such would be teachers day! I still remember my councillors (lets not mention name without their consent) stayed back late after school skipping their tuitions to help me get things done and ready for teachers day. Some were wrapping gifts, some were busy planning games and events for teachers. Why these are extraordinary? well...It is totally out of our heavily packed of schedule. If i may recall, a number of my councillors were presidents and vice presidents of clubs and society in the school. (And yes they even "work for prefect" at night. I get phone calls to discuss critical stuff at night) Really thanks guys for all the help!

Managing the "interesting" school every morning, has thought me about the diverse way of life. It somehow makes me feel great about it, but yet at times it makes me worry. Since my predecessors, there have been an image created, NEVER MESS WITH THE SCHOOL CAPTAIN. Every morning, without miss i would be standing right infront of the assembly area and i would expect absolute silence among the student the moment i step infront. Warning will be given, who ever challenges will need to face consequences as the "legend" goes. My daily routine would be scouting from the back of the assembly making sure my own prefects are there on duty by 715 sharp as assembly starts at 720am. As i walk to the front, i can actually see silence grow from the form 1 and then slowly form2 and goes on. If that fails..they will get a "Shhhhhhhhh" or "SENYAP" from me. At extreme case i will step up to the podium, and use either of this 2 weapons alone on 1000 students. (Yes without microphone.. how loud can tat be?.. enuff to be heard by 1000 students). Even if tat fails, cascading effect will appear, my councillors will start to step into the rows of students picking ignorant students out for disciplinary action. (Rather interesting huh? that is how i begin my everyday morning.... and i have yet to mention the frontgate and backgate cases..perhaps next time in another article). The morning session alone thought me what is known as courage and rightfulness. Also how power is manifested.

Speaking of which, have u seen pure evil? I believe i have (or was it rather more to psychological defect). I have met many bad students in school, those who smoke (yes.. almost everyday i will bring 1 student caught smoking for disciplinary action), play truancy (yes i have chased them before all over and outside of school long time ago), gang students (lots of them), and all sort. But i know 1 thing, they know what is called mutual respect. A simple show of respect while doing your duty, they will show respect back as they know you are just performing your responsibility. There were this scenario when i was downtown going for tuition, a gang of student try to "cari pasal" with me, to my surprise, out of no where, coincidently a gang...of students which many consider as bad students actually stood by my side warning the other smaller gang to back off or face them. The one my new found fren (actually i know him long since in school) told me "We might not be happy with each other in school, but we are definitely friends outside". That time i learn a valuable lesson in life. People simply want mutual respect. They are just playing their destined role in the society. Oh ya... back to the pure evil thingy, yes i met 1 pure evil. For a small offence of not adhering to school uniform guidelines, he was caught and i was "punishing" him( i seldom have to personally punish students which i was doing that day as my 2 assistant school captain was busy briefing to the entire prefect board on up coming task), i decided to let them go off easily but just clearing up the assembly area of rubbish. Everyone did their part, but he declined, he wanted to prove his "greatness". I told him, just pick 1 plastic bag up and i will let him go to his class. He say no! and walk away. When i shouted and stop him. He shouted back. To his mistake of course... 70 prefects standing right beside me. The prefects surrounded him blocking his way. I stared right into his eyes and told him, "U R WRONG" or something like tat telling him y wouldn't he follow the rules? He look straight at me back and said "You better be careful after school". To his insanity, he threaten me right infront of 70 prefects. It immediately escalated to the highest offense in school (Threatening a prefect or teacher) (and well in my case, the school captain.. which made it an immediate big thing). The guy got suspended immediately for 1 week. Does he regret it?.. no! after that he changed school and unfortunate for me i met him after tuition class. He almost gang banged me.. but i was lucky enuff to run away.(Thanks to his gang who think he is crazy....to want to hit me .... coz they too think ..the fault frm the beginning was his.. i ran away when they were talking). He knew no regrets, he fears noting, he thinks he is totally right and he is willing to physically injure another just to prove himself. THAT I CALL THAT PURE EVIL.

That and many more "interesting" happened during my school captain year. (want to know more.. either wait for another article which i feel more and more keen to write about my prefect journey....or u can just ask me)

My life in form 6 is basically blocked by prefect work .. and school magazine editorial board stuffs. This year, we wanted to do something totally different. After discussion with my school Editor and Deputy Editor (one is my assistant school captain and the other is my councillor, both my close fren), we decided to rearrange the content of the magazine and redesign everything by our own. This is something totally out of the norm in school editorial board (at least i think). This cause us in the board to meet up more often that we usual, work till late at night, spend our study break arranging and designing, and even visit our teacher advisor at her house at night. Again team management was everything in the experience. People were lost on what we wanted to do, many sees no urgency to the things that need to be done. I can still remember the turning point when the team finally, went from first gear to fifth gear out of the sudden. It was when my fren started to felt disappointment (at least i think) about the team motivation and commitment. He has been a close supportive fren since long time ago till when then even when i was the school captain. How can i let him down! We called for an urgent meeting, a decisive meeting of everyone in the board. We made it clear (yes.. i was "evil"... i was condemning everyone who wont show support to him and provoke them to shift their gears.. sorry guys..no offence ya....very kan cheong tat time). All in all.... we work late till the very last few days before school end (tat is 3 weeks before stpm first paper) and pull it off. The magazine was out. We set a new standard in our school magazine. Total arrangement by ourselves. Totally design by ourselves. We changed the perception of the students in our school about school magazine. Our successors now designs their own magazine and no longer rely on the designer from the publisher.

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CHAPTER 4: CONCLUSION OF VOLUME 1
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All in all, whoever who made it till this line. I thank you for your interest to read through. I may not have been good in expressing myself, but i deem all that have happened to me in the past made me who i m today. The experience molded how i see thing and how i see people. The challenges made me think more and look for solution then just hoping for solution. I am sorry if i bored you, but this is my story (although i skipped alot of it). If you have yet to experienced pain in life, please go on and give it a try. It is when u really fell, scream for help,climbed back up and pull your frens up again which will make u a better person next day.

I decided to blog once more

2008-09-19T16:16:00.003+08:00

After more than a year since i decided not to blog... It has come to the day I see the necessity for me to blog once more.

2 years ago, i blogged simply becoz, everyone is blogging... so i decide to share some thoughts in my mind with the unknown cyberspace...but soon stuff caught up with me..... with very few hours of sleep a day...it was an easy choice... sleep or blog.. i chose SLEEP.

But today.. after much consideration, perhaps is time for me to blog once again..
This time, i blog becoz i believe things inside my mind should be shared out..my views on things shouldnt be just kept to myself.. perhaps it could do some good ...to some others..

The new term for me....

2007-08-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

A new Pride partner of KH Studio

2007-07-29T14:19:00.000+08:00

2 years ago, the first official member of KH Studio, the astonishing Aspire1692 became my partner. Together, everything seems limited...

Throughout the past 2 year, several new members joined the studio...

But today, I am proud to present to everyone, my latest partner...

Love it alot, as it help solve more of my problems.. :)
It is as mobile as it can gets.. a notebook and now a pda phone....

An interesting trip to the City where money lives

2007-07-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

After checking my schedule, i notice i do not have any other weekdays which i am free during office hour... So i decide to rush back to KL today... ( just incase you are guessing.. please KL is not the city where money lives)

I visited... need to do some banking...(although in the end.....was too late to deposit some cash)...but in the process of waiting for my turn.. i saw 2 interesting person which makes me think... how diversify people can be?

I saw 2 noisy customer over there.. both for different reason..one a shanghainese... (i think).. wants a replacement for his expired credit card...

While the other, is a middle age lady..unhappy with how she is treated in citibank....

Indeed both of them.. made quite a noise there....but the bank officers there show quite some patience in dealing with them...

But then again why i find them interesting....? Is how they leave...

the shanghainese...(looks like a rich businessman) left... thanking everyone for trying helping him solve his problem..

The other ..the lady...keep on saying she wants to complain to the manager...

Started with "I cant take this i want to see your manager..." and end it with about the same phrase...

I wonder if i were in their shoes.. how would i react...? No idea. but i am sure.. i respect how the shanghainese behaved...haha

..another trash from me

to be continued..

Finally reblogging again

2007-07-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to blog again....
So many things been happening.... so many things to tell....
but yet dont know who to tell.......
Stay tune for more stories

Been quite sometime since i blog

2007-03-18T11:54:00.000+08:00

Gosh... without noticing .. it have been so many weeks since i last blog...
Will try to blog as often as possible again....

Why was i missing in action so long ... after chinese new year?
Gosh... you will be surprise.. with the list of things i have to do...
Out of the sudden so many final project came up...(alright..my groupmates help do alot..but then again it is still alot of work)...and i have 3 more final project to complete in coming weeks..

Full with "interesting" activities along the way as well...

A slightly difference Chinese New Year

2007-02-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

Without noticing is already the 7th day of Chinese New Year...
And lectures and test are arriving soon...

Indeed .. I have had my CNY... but in a different way compare to years before...
or at least is a kinda different

On the first day.... I actually went down town to times square with my bros...
To my surprise ... there are quite a number there. KL is not empty..
over the years... more and more people are in KL during CNY holidays...
I can still recall... about 10 or 15 year ago when i was a small kid...KL is EMPTY during CNY.... you can practically lie on the road and no car will run over you...
But...look at now.... it is so different (just for those who dont know.. I am pure KL breed.. my family originate from KL as well)
So, what did we do there in Times 1 ? We went there for a movie.. duh..chose the wrong movie to watch on the first day of CNY.. we watched

Definately not the right movie for CNY.. If u know the story line...

Never watched a movie on the first day of CNY for quite some time and .. this is what i watched.. no comments..

Then there come 2nd day..well kinda the same visiting my mom side of the family.. everything was kinda normal... not much difference

Without noticing.. here comes 3rd....day...

This time is different.... no visiting houses like what me and my form5 classmates do everyyear... oh my god. the streak of 5 years painin session stopped... But we had something new.. we went for our own "reunion" dinner..

We went..to

i must indeed say.. not bad the food there... puas juga makan there... :)

after dinner.... they had a little game of.. wat we call... Blackjack (sorry.. cant display any pics here.... hehe..else they might end up in jail or bald..)

After tat.... out of sudden.. we went for a midnight show.. we watched....

Things just get weirder on the 4th day.. I went to low yat plaza to help my friend buy a new comp... (let me restress this .. on the 4th Day of CNY).. almost all shop were closed except this particular shop.. so .. lucky them.. the RM3K is for them to grab...

You think this is weird to do on 4th day of CNY.. wait till you read on..

I went back to my uni that night as well... (4th day CNY .. and i m in Uni spending a night there)... wooohooo.... online alone in pusanika somemore..hehe

5th day?... Of coz still in uni..woke up and went to meet K.....who just arrived from B......* . Teman him and the rest for half a day.... "without knowing".. i left them and i went to ...D's place.... gosh.... tiba tiba i giler and went over to his place... must be sick i guess..anyway.. thanks for having me in your house D.. :)

At night.. boom.. i was back with the gang and K.. we went putrajaya... ok.. i m still fascinated with the view there.. although i have been there.. numerous times...

hmm.... so many thing.. so lazy to tell.. want to know more ask me...

Conclusion.. i had a different CNY this year...

btw : i am back at home now :)

GONG XI FA CAI

2007-02-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

It's here finally... it is chinese new year...
People.. Happy Chinese New Year....

a celebration which everyone gain in everything....
money..(of coz.. angpow)
cloths (people bbuy new cloths maa...)
weight (eat alot ..eat alot...... oh.. i am eating my "ba kua" as i blog)

Although dont feel the "gong xi" sangat already this year.. but i will keep the spirit up..
:)

Look at this page.. i purposely change it to CNY theme..

just some read up i found about this new year for OX...(my chinese zodiac) :

"
This is a stable year for those who are born in the year of the Ox.
Though it is an average year, try to keep a low profile and avoid implementing any major personal
plans such as migrating or changing jobs. This is mainly because there is no lucky star to give
you a boost when help is required. The outcome of situations will be solely dependent on an
individual’s effort. It can be very tiring. My advice is to stay positive and only pass positive
remarks. Avoid gossip and being sarcastic. Positive behavior and words will induce good things
to occur. If there are elders at home, please take special care of their health and safety."

Another Busy Week..

2007-02-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

Well....

It was again another busy week..was all over the place doing all sort of stuff..
Cant really remember how many meals i skipped...
My phone inbox can stop receiving sms...
Phone calls coming in... at times...every 15 minutes someone will call me...during lab..

But good thing is I am still alive...
Yesterday, i just "finish" my "event"..
Everything went through smoothly.. .and this is all thanks to my OCs...
Really appreciate every extra effort they put in... You guys make me feel like the journey has just begun to be more fun together...

And i must never forget ....my friends who spare their entire day to help me..
Really would like to thank Sch,Tv,JH,HY,CW,SW for being there to offer their help..

oh ya.. not to forget F and V for being the "guest".. :)

FIREWORKS display every night

2007-02-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

Fireworks... originally discovered and made by the chinese civilisation...

has evolve through the years and is displayed everywhere around the world....

The awesome fireworks display we often see everywhere.... requires alot of work behind it for the setup... (maths is highly involve i believe.. sigh)

We as Malaysian usually get the opportunity to witness fireworks display.. .(proper ones... not those.. release by personal aclaimed pyrotechnicians).. during special occasion like new year or national day

BUT for the pass 1 month.. there are firework display everynight at taman tasik titiwangsa where Eye On Malaysia is located.... EVERY NIGHT

I was lucky enough to have actually have a panoramic view of it from my house..
So i decided to record tonight a portion of the firework display and share with everyone.. :) (click on the picture to see the video)

On a weekend...

2007-02-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

After trying to squeez some time out...

Finally I was able to go do some "shopping" today... at Times Square..
(well .. i havent shop for CNY yet...)

I dragged my bro along there just for a second opinion on stuff...

After walking about 5 floors of times square... notice there aren't many choices for me... (need something that is not so stricking in colour.. for some reason... sorry cant disclose here)..
Soon bro gave his bright idea.. Just go to SUB...

since they usually only have black and white... so no need to think so much there.. can just choose anything from there that we think is nice..
spend about 45 minutes there... seeing this.. seeing that.. calculating this ..calculating that....

Well in the end.. lets just say.. we left the outlet.. with quite some stuff.. :)

After that... wait what.. we do what we do best... go low yat plaza of course..
Heard that Microsoft is launching Vista there...

We went in and wow... really amaze with what Windows Vista can do..
and I am sure.. i do make the promoter/demostrator/ whatever they call themselves ...enjoy their work..
At least .. I was asking questions... and of quality questions..They really show their skill with Vista...

Well too bad my notebook cant support the full feature of Vista.. else i should go get it.. looks so cool!!!

That is how i spent one of my few weekends not in UKM.. :)

Perfect Camera for me

2007-01-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

NIKON DSLR D40

People this is the camera that I want badly... Saw it in The Star yesterday ..

wow this camera suits me well with all the features in it .. and its price...

although is still freaking costly but yet .. it is already the cheapest out there with the specs it has..RM2488

With sensitivity over 1600.... photography freaks may understand me well..

This is damn good to take amazing captivating photgraph in almost all condition..

So anyone who ... wants to get me anything... I WANT THIS

The evil in Human

2007-01-31T12:40:00.000+08:00

Evil is defined in many ways...
If the view point to directed to the side of religions .. well it will be very very long to explain..

Let's just keep it to what we normal people usually consider evil..

We usually call someone evil..... when someone does an act that is against norm and brings bad consequences to others... That is as general as it can be..

However, different people will consider evil differently... Some will just call another person evil if he/she does not do good things... (well at least i know 1 person who always call another person evil vp)..

But when we dig down inside ourselves and judge ourselves are we evil.. How do we judge ourselves?

The saying everyone has evil in them... I beg to differ.. I dont believe that statement. Evil is never inside someone, it is always around us instead. People take an action base on previous results. Both Newton and Law of Karma agree to that. Every action has an equal reaction.

Everything that happens to us or around us provokes us to take different actions.. and is based on this action one can judge him/her self evil... so does other people judge you.

Come to think of it... there are several times... that i believe people will consider me evil... This to me a few years back.. and most recently a "few" days back.
I made decision and stands that may not please others...

To share abit.. perhaps the few years back scenario.... I was in this discipline organization. For the past 10 years or more....in the organization record, no one has ever been dismiss from it due to discipline and performance reason. However i dismissed some one ... after a long discussion in the council. Although it is a join decision... the final say comes from me... and I dismiss these "people"..

And ever since then i was remembered as someone who took those action that many have not taken... I still hear people mentioning it from time to time..
Is this an act of evil... I dont think i am evil.... but from my action, i believe many would consider me a devil.

So when people as me about evil amongst us. I would say, i can really argue on this point.... Instead of I hear no evil see no evil.... I HEAR EVIL,SEE EVIL and SENSE EVIL

I dont condemn these "evil" completely else... we wont know what is called good or angel. According to the concept of relativity, everything in this world is by comparison... You are as good as you are... if there are evil as evil as another is..

to be continued

Sudden lack of time

2007-01-31T12:29:00.000+08:00

Just 2 days ago...

I was saying i have a LOST day.. not knowing what to do...
Just moment after that, I am suddenly packed with stuff to do...
Looks like I am back on track ... the track of never ending work..

Full and packed days ahead..seems like either i skip my lunch or ... skip my dinner lately...

But what is worst.. due to the earlier ... thinking in the week.. the thinking is still going on.. and more....
That means I dont really sleep when I am on bed. Yes my body is not moving, but my mind is.. i can litteraly remember what i "dreamt" or did i?

To add what is worst.. i had Digital Design test just now.. I did all the questions though.. but i think i screw up that test. I never properly revise on it...
I really need to concentrate in my studies back again..
Is it me who cant divide myself well... or I cant be divided.
Well if i cant divide myself.. at least I should divide my time...
Nah... not really good at that either ...

What am i thinking now... ? Where on earth is DORAEMON when you need him the most? I can actually list out how many useful things he can give me from his pocket now which will make my life easier and better...

Anyone who has the contact of Doraemon please pass it to me...

to be continued..

to be continued

Relations?

2007-01-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

Do I have real friends?

What is friends? Who am I? Am I a friend?
Sometimes things get a little complex around me...
I meet alot of people in my life...but how do I categorize this people..
Do i trust these people ..

Yes I Do... I am like a open book but a torn book.. I share everypart of my life with different different people. I dont mind telling what I think or what i feel. But I dont tell anyone in particular everything..

So does that mean i still trust my friends... Then again, do i consider them my friends? If you ask me to list out my friends now as in by category of friends they are.. I must say I cant.. The only thing i can is to categorize how i met them...

So do i treasure them? Yes i do..especially those I have been with together for a long time.... I treasure them most especially if i felt that we have been through up and downs together...

Do they feel the same? I cant blame them if they dont nor can i blame them if they dont talk to me often...

I am just not good at expressing myself the right way at the right time....

Last night, i did abit of thinking ...reviewing the people i met these few years..
Somehow notice there are many people who dont really talk to me unless necessary... yes i do consider them my friend .. but i somehow feel a gap...
Is it me being to analytical or .....

Come to think of it.... I dont really know whether do i have anyone who consider me as their close friend who they want to be with..

My fault? is this is how nature works... you dont get to have many close friends in the same time.. You might consider someone a friend.. people may not consider it...

Do i care about this...... YES.. but do i show it out....

You tell me...

to be continued..

Another lost day

2007-01-29T15:17:00.000+08:00

This is the day I eager most, but yet fear the most

Today out of the sudden, I dont feel that packed...

Earlier in the weekends, was in "aquarium" doing "matching" and going online
Been a tiring weekend, didn't really get much sleep...

Alright, let's back track a little bit more, last week and the week back.. was a tremendously hectic week. There were so many things need to be done and completed in short timeline. I survived though..

But the concern is now this very moment... I feel LOST..

This are among those awkard days I get in my life. I know i have alot of things to do.. and are doing it.. But i still feel lost... at many moment i just sit there and do nothing... observing around and thinking..

I planned to revise and catch up with all my studies.... but cant really do that. Somehow I am just not interested in the subjects I am suppose to revise on..

So instead, I did alot of thinking... about life..

to be continued..

Having everything in one place

2007-01-28T09:09:00.000+08:00

Been writing here and there....

So finally decided to write everything here... (dont worry guys... if i am writing here ..i will still write in those blogs in promise to help)

Din really like to write blogs at first.... coz... most of the time.. dont really find the time to write all these... but lately.. due to the trend... and a little mental "enhancement", I decided to write...(provided i have internet access)

I sometime wonders, why would everyone write whatever they think or they feel in their blog. Do they write exactly what they feel or is it just meerly what they want others to think they are feeling?

But Nevermind.. I think is time for the world to know what is happening in my complex mind!!