Relations?

Do I have real friends?

What is friends? Who am I? Am I a friend?
Sometimes things get a little complex around me...
I meet alot of people in my life...but how do I categorize this people..
Do i trust these people ..

Yes I Do... I am like a open book but a torn book.. I share everypart of my life with different different people. I dont mind telling what I think or what i feel. But I dont tell anyone in particular everything..

So does that mean i still trust my friends... Then again, do i consider them my friends? If you ask me to list out my friends now as in by category of friends they are.. I must say I cant.. The only thing i can is to categorize how i met them...

So do i treasure them? Yes i do..especially those I have been with together for a long time.... I treasure them most especially if i felt that we have been through up and downs together...

Do they feel the same? I cant blame them if they dont nor can i blame them if they dont talk to me often...

I am just not good at expressing myself the right way at the right time....


Last night, i did abit of thinking ...reviewing the people i met these few years..
Somehow notice there are many people who dont really talk to me unless necessary... yes i do consider them my friend .. but i somehow feel a gap...
Is it me being to analytical or .....

Come to think of it.... I dont really know whether do i have anyone who consider me as their close friend who they want to be with..

My fault? is this is how nature works... you dont get to have many close friends in the same time.. You might consider someone a friend.. people may not consider it...

Do i care about this...... YES.. but do i show it out....

You tell me...

to be continued..